So a lot of smart people have been urging me to rethink this project as a feature instead of a short, due to the length of the script. I think everyone is pretty much in agreement that the script couldn't be too much shorter and still do what I am trying to do with it, yet it's current length makes it unwieldy to shoot and annoying to program at festivals. I've been whittling away at it and have it down to 28 pages, but that still means I'd have to shoot like four and a half pages a day for a six day shoot which is a lot for an inexperienced director to shoot and try to get exceptional material. There are strong arguments to be made for converting it into a feature. For one, the potential for it to have some kind of distribution increases significantly which in turn means the potential for it to generate revenue would exist. Also, people might actually see it. I know. Crazy. Further, there's the fact that once you have all the crew, equipment and momentum to start shooting you're halfway there. Might as well go for it. Just add a whole lot more money and stir.
The idea of going so completely back to square one makes me feel empty. Re-writing the script as a feature would require deconstructing the whole thing and rebuilding it from the ground up. But the worst part is the financing. Where the fuck am I supposed to get the money? The idea of slogging out into this brutal economy and trying to scrounge up hundreds of thousands of dollars makes me exhausted and depressed just thinking about it.
The problem is how suddenly abstract it all seems. Am I actually making a movie? There is very little evidence to suggest that I am. Maybe I'm delusional. Long, short or medium sized, right now it's all in my head.